Is it the end of the line for me tommorrow?

Start your new life tomorrow. If it means your a Diabetic, so be it. But your life isn't over. The behavior is over, you make the pledge to yourself by coming clean with your Doctor and saying "I need some help!" You tell your Doc what is really going on in your head and how you need to be referred to a Mental Health Professional. You must make the choice to start recovering from your hellish past. You have a choice tomorrow, a different day. You can overcome these painful obstacles by asking your Doctor to help you. It's the first step back. Welcome.